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Yeah, cheesy title, but who cares. Basically it's how I feel...just roaming about, doing bits and bobs, but nothing much happening after the last of the moving stuff left the now empty flat. Of course, I am in Rome as well, where my family resided for the last year and a half. Now it's come down to the last few days of just killing time, my sister seeing her friends for the last time, and my uncle leaving for Colombia before we go to Madrid.
Madrid is somethign I have to mentally prepare for, as it's where my dad's family lives, and it's not going to be easy having a 10 year old and an 8 year old cousin clinging on 24/7 when I simply won't have the energy nor the enthusiasm. And it will also be my grandfather's 80th birthday, something that won't be much of a happy occasion this year due to the unexpected death of my father. It will also be my cousin's 11th birthday I believe. Hope that goes well. I am thinking my sister and my cousins should go to a theme park we used to go as young girls near Madrid so as to drain our cousins' energy out, lol....it's a plan!
Hmm, what now though?? I am not enjoying Rome as much, although it's a beautiful city, but it's too bloody hot and I already got bitten on my toes and legs by nasty little buggers...but that is expected. And Colombia will be no better. But who gives a poo, I adore Colombia and my family and I wouldn't change my life for what I have got there. I have not been back since the summer of 2005 which is rare for me to miss a summer there, but I am intending to change that and go in the winters instead and spend my summers in UK/Europe working and being with boyfriend and friends, hopefully starting next year.
Well, for now I have nothing left to say, except that I want the next couple of weeks to fly by, and arrive in Colombia finally. Hope you're all having a wicked summer so far. Hasta pronto people!
Right, let me start off by saying that I am actually going to miss being in London now, because there were a few things I wanted to do that I did not achieve. I admit I was quite bored at the beginning, found myself with no direction, no purpose, no real responsibilities, and hence no reason to get up in the morning and make the most of my day. I love sleeping in, don't get me wrong, but when my uncle came for the day from Madrid, as I was talking to him I realised there were actually quite a few things I could do in London, such as go to the zoo and sketch animals, which is a fanatastic idea! I originally also intended to seek a cat shelter and volunteer for a while to care of some cats, but I never got to finding the place, even though I did do some research in the internet beforehand. But anyways, the zoo was a good alternative as I could go any time, any day, and spend as much time as I desired. Well, I never really got to do this, but other things came up fortunately.
For example, an old internet buddy of mine from about 5 years ago actually took the liberty to find me on Facebook, and it just so happened he lived in London, so we decided to meet up for the first time. He's the second ever person I met from the internet (the first being my much beloved boyfriend), only very few internet friends of mine survived as I soon found out back in the day that there were loads of assholes out there. Currently most of my online socialising consists of people from school or uni, so people I knew in person beforehand. But I weighed out the pro's and con's and the chances of this dude being someone completely different from whom he claimed to be on Facebook, but I took the chance in meeting him. He turned out to be one of the coolest people, and we really clicked, which was a bonus. =) He's also a local of London and showed me an interesting area of the city which was completely unknown to me. We chatted long and I met one of his friends and we finished the afternoon off with a soggy (due to the rain) Subway sandwich. It was a great day indeed, and hopefully I'll keep in contact with him, even though I'll be in Bristol by the time I get back from Colombia.
Speaking of which, I leave early next month to Colombia for a whole 3 months, but I leave the UK next Tuesday, to Rome first to be with my mum, sister, and uncle. I've only really got 2 days left here and there was one more thing I wanted to do which was go see an IMAX film of an African lion documentary, apparently in 3D, but my hopes are low as to how possible that will be. No worries, tomorrow I am hopefully going to see a good friend of mine from my boarding school days in France, cause she just turned 18 this month and she's flying back to France on the day, so I really want to see her and say goodbye for the summer. I love her heaps and she's loads of fun, and I hope she likes the card I got her.
Oh, and let me briefly tell you people about my last weekend here. As usual, spent it with my boyfriend, whom I love to death, and we were invited to a wedding reception on Saturday evening. Well, as always, we did not shop earlier to get something decent to wear so we spent the whole afternoon looking for something for both of us...and shopping is not something we do often. It was hard looking for a skirt the right size and prize, but I did finally find it (luckilly I had a nice shirt and shoed already). And my boyfriend managed to find a nice simple shirt and a belt. His search took longer than expected, and to be honest, we were both exhausted by the end of the day, and we still had to get back and get ready and go to the reception. It was the first time my boyfriend saw me in a skirt, let alone in heels and a skirt, but it was nice for both of us, and I quite enjoyed myself, despite my stubborness for not 'boogie-ing', but I did slow dance a few times which I am sure was much appreciated by my other half. And we also ended up playing a bit of chess on a giant drawn board on the floor with giant plastic peices which were layed out in the patio area. We gave up playing after about 10 minutes, just no patience from neither of us, and plus, he ate one of my peices, the Knight (horse head). In the end it was a lovely evening, and he sang a karaoke song which he performed it very well I think (sang 'Pretty Woman') and the cake was yummylicious I must say. Stole a few pieces to take back with me too, hehe.
So yeah, pretty nice these last few days, and I am very much looking forward to my summer. I will miss my boyfriend tremendously, and I shall keep my fingers crossed that he will be able to go to Colombia for a couple of weeks in August, but if not, I shall be looking forward to seeing him when I get back to England. Changing the subject a little, I would also like to express my happiness to my younger sister Muriel, who just graduated from high school last Friday, and that I am so sorry I could not be there. I know she's alright with this, but I feel partly disappointed with myself. Te quiero Muri, and I am very proud of you!
OK, I'll stop for now, as it is 1am and we need to wake up at 7am....yuck. Hehehe...till next time!
Well, GREEN is the colour for today as I just happened to have stumbled to the London Premiere of Shrek the 3rd...how cool is that?!!!? I've never been to a Premiere before (well, I think I did go to Disney's Aladdin when I was a little girl, and I remember very little) so this is pretty much my first one, and I saw celebrities! I am not a major fan of any one really, and the ones I would have preferred to have seen were either not there or very hard to see. Of course, I did not get the best place to stand as I got there about 45 mins before the stars arrived, and it was already full of people ready with their autograph booklets, camcorders, and digicams. Knowing me, of course I came prepared...NOT...only had my handy disposable camera and actually did manage to get a couple of interesting shots of Cemeron Diaz, Justin Timberlake, Antonio Banderas and a 'real life Shrek' lol. But Mike Myers for instance was there but didn't really go to my section of the crowd, and Eddie Murphy didn't make an appearance full stop, which was slightly upsetting, but as I didn't have any expectations in the first place and only knew about the whole event from one of the London newspapers you get for free which I read earlier today, I made the most out of it. It was all a bonus for me really, and luckily it's a film series I do love.
OK, I realised I just wrote a bulky paragraph, and I am at an internet café, with a hungry tummy and wanting to watch Big Brother as it starts at 9pm today. So I think I'll leave at that for now, but I hope to post pics of the Premiere sometime in the near future! Watch this space and good night from me! ;)
Hi people, hope you're all well. Today I've been sooo bored. Woke up around mid-day, showered etc, took my time, watched telly, made and ate lunch, and watched a bit more telly. It's hard to kill time when no one's around really. So finally in the end I decided to go out for a walk, go window shopping, and I unexpectedly bought a bikini I really liked. Now I find myself in an internet cafe, again, to check on e-mails, facebook, and such. Gosh, it's hard not to have internet whenever I want it or need it.
I have a dinner tonight with Heidi, the wonderful lady with whom I lived with the previous year in London, she's a great friend of my late father. She's cooking nice home-cooked food, which I am very much looking forward to, so yeah, that's gonna be my highlight of the day. London's just looking gloomy lately, it's quite warm and humid, but cloudy.
I really really want to go to the beach or a theme park or something, get out so much energy I have inside, cause I feel it building up more and more. I have been feeling quite frustrated today as well, about my life without my dad, it's still so weird, surreal, and I keep trying not to think about it too much cause it upsets me all too easily. *sigh*.....I feel like I just wanna break something guilt-free, scream at the top of my lungs without distrubing anyone...but I ask you, where in this world can I do that in my own space and time!? I really feel so empty right now, like something's physically missing from my life, yet I am still in some form of denial, I don't want to accept this horrible reality. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
GGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There...my virtual scream...I am sure that did not hurt anyone's ears. OK, I feel slightly better now. Now I cannot wait for the weekend, to chill out with my boyfriend, he's the best. I always feel so much better when I am with him, despite the fact he always playfights with me, resulting in a very bruised up me, but it's still all fun. Well, think I'll leave it there for now, as I think I feel good enough to not talk about my state of mind, because it's improved now. I wish you all a very good Thursday. Ciaooo!
Good day, evening, morning, afternoon....depending where in the world you are and when you read this, I am sure I have greeted everyone correctly. Don't be fooled by this post's title, as it really has not been an eventful day. Yesterday was more interesting; for instance, I finally bought myself a much needed watch, as I am usually quite lost and feel 'naked' without one. How I lived without one I am not sure, (well, mobile phones have been my back-ups for telling the time). Mind, I do have a watch that I like, but it suddenly stopped working, and I had put a battery not that long ago, and it was slightly uncomfortable, so I decided to not use it and just wait for the right watch. This previous one has got quite a story to it though, funny really.
I was in boarding school in Aix-en-Provence when my then watch broke, and it just so happened my buddy had a watch to sell, and it was Swatch brand too. He claimed it was his younger sister's and she didn't want it, and he sold it to me for 30 Euros, which I suppose was a fair price. I soon started hearing romours that in fact this watch I bought was stolen from the school's lost and found, and soon enough, it was true, but that did not make me change my mind, and I stuck with it. The problem was that my biology teacher, who also happened to be the headmaster of my diploma programme, recognised the newly bought Swatch on my wrist, and asked my quite calmly (and sarcastically) 'where did you get that watch from?'...and me being the most honest being on this planet blatantly told the truth: which was that my friend stole the watch from the lost and found and sold it to me. Everyone in the classroom gasped in shock and the then girlfriend of said 'thief' was somewhat mad and confused. In the end, me being the teacher's pet and all, my teacher was not so bothered as it was sitting colelcting dust for over a year and now and was glad someone finally found it a new home. Hahaha...so there's my little anectode. But alas, this watch has finally come to its end a few months ago and I decided I want a watch that appeals to me, that I choose, and I already had my eye on a style.
To cut a long, silly story short, I bought a fancy pants wide-leathered strap of which you can choose your favourite dial on it, and I could buy others in the future and change it whenever, or buy different straps and combine, but for now I got one of each, and I am very happy of having time back on my side. And for the record, it's not Swatch.
Oh my goodness....I cannot believe I just rambled on sooooo much about a watch!!! I bet you readers out there fell asleep at some point, I don't blame you. Apart from my watch-buying, London was beautiful and sunny and warm and it was so nice just walking about and not having a purpose, no responsanility, no direction. Lately I've had too much on my mind, and sometimes not doing anything makes it worse because I inevitably start thinking about my dad, and it's not easy in public. I do find myself crying a lot at random times of the die, whether I am walking through the busy streets of London, on the top deck of a double-decker bus, or watching some random documentary with melancholic music on. Guess it's part of my way of grieving, and as long as I know I got people around me who care for me and I keep myself focused on the normal needs of life, I think I'll do just fine. Sure there will be some major downs further along the road, but I have always had my art, family, boyfriend, and friends (and in no particular order) to support me and help me move on forward. So yeah, I'm feeling pretty OK for now, and I think I'll end this post right...........----->HERE.
Good day and welcome to my wonderful world of randomness. I think I'll keep this post brief, but knowing myself, it'll end up being a sequel to the Bible, so you're free to stop at any moment for a coffee break.
I am not new to the internet or networking, however blogging is certainly something I've never considered doing, let alone keeping an actual diary, so this is kind of a breakthrough for me and I believe it'll be quite theraputic as a result. I've recently suffered a loss in my family (my dad's passing away) and it's really been messing with my mind and how I see the world. Mind, I am constantly thinking about issues in my life and on this planet, but I've never recorded my thoughts really. So doing this now I think is a great opportunity to organise my thoughts and reflect on them as time goes on...what this will give me I am not sure, but I am certain it will offer some interesting reading in the future.
Just to be totally random, I would like to note that I received a most out of the blue message on my Facebook account from someone who has the same last name as me, and trust me, my last name is as common as a purple-spotted banana in the arctic. So as far as I am concerned, the only family I know with my last name mostly live in Argentina (migrated from Ukraine early 20th century) from my father's side. This dude's family that messaged me on Facebook came from a family from Ukraine who immigrated around the same era to Canada....(did that make sense?), so yeah...who know...we might be very very very distant cousins? Only time will tell; I plan to stay in touch with person and ask my own family for names a few generations back. Watch this space for family history update!
OK, got that out of my system....how about a quick update on my Sunday...yeah? Well...it's HOTTTTT in England for some funny reason, so I went to the park with my boyfriend for a while and played catch, with a mini football. Twas fun, it's nice to be playing out once in a while. I also helped him make some spiffy new web banners for his website, which is awesome possumness...he's a playwright! =) Hmm, what else...errrr, dunno, getting a bit of a neck-ache, so I shall wrap it up for now, but I do hope to make this a regular activity...BLOGGING....woot! Ciao for now people!
